I musent wait

I musent wait for you
for i'd be waiting a lifetime

though I thought our love was true
it has not been the most kind

what is my destiny?
does it include you returning to me?
do we ever get to live happily?
Is it a joke to even think if thee?

I mean you silenced me in my darkest hour
I was loosing my mind and you just protected your honor

What was that thing we used to say?
How we'd always be friends and never let the other get away?
Well I lost my sanity and faith in humanity
since you last out reached your hand to me

Its been a hard road back to normalcy
what ever the fuck that may be
its been lonely and harsh
and even worse that I can no longer feel you in my heart


I've painfully seen
just how lonely life can be

how easily you can get lost in a sea 

if there isn't a person looking out for me 

Though I have learned a lot from these months
Whats most important is what i've overcome
 emotions I thought I may die from
that now make me realize I answer to no one
but the lord who gives me the strength to run
from the absurdities that challenge my equilibrium

And being here on the other side
I can see clearly that theres nothing I left behind
because the people who want the best for me are always by my side
and thats why you my dear, you no longer deserve my time.