Its a pain to leave Mary Jane

Though she has been a dear friend
it is time I leardned not to pretend
theres a hard lesson i've been taught again and again
and now its time I give it my full ten

I haven't been sober in over a year
a "funtioning pothead" is the title I feared
and here it is, across my chest
I have become a slave to an addiction as I travel on this difficult quest.

and though she's been kind to lesson the pain
she has yet to cure the problem and left me in vain
for as I sink deeper within with every puff
this bliss that I inhale is just not enough.

I cannot wait around for the man with the pound
I spend too many hours staring aimlessly at the ground
looking for a purpose thats too hard to find
so I just blow away the thoughts with every blunt and dime

but here today I'm ready for the test
and with my thirsty eyes I make an oath to take a rest
for in time I'd like my brain to heal
and perhaps observe what its like to really feel.

Though i've grown to rely on this gift mother nature has supplied
I hope to find a better balance and smoke moderately over time
to enjoy the highs after fighting the lows
to go father then I have ever fathomed to go.

How do i find the words for agony?

To know a happiness that is now past me.

How should we know where our foot is next to go?

Is it wise to be slow, to observe the world around in its current order

Or do we speed up the progress to expand the boarder?

Do our minds create sin and the violence we peek
on the televisions, cell phones and tablets we keep

is it wrong to advance our inventions, when they eventually become weapons?
Shouldnt we be greatful for the peace that we teach,
a vision that could heal the sick and strengthen the weak?

a love for a people is a love for all man kind
if we can fight for our neighbor then war is a waste of lives
because everyone has a neighbor who might be a friend in time.

Chopplin will give Washington a run for his money

Watch this, it's important.

http://www.trueactivist.com/gab_gallery/the-greatest-speech-ever-made/

words.

we all have a story to tell
some closer to heaven then hell
but lets not waste time as we dwell
on the harsh realities and sinful spells

on an adventure we go
to fulfill the fate we behold
build character by baring the cold
harsh realities of a life spent getting old

distraction from pain we seek
as months are mistaken for weeks
but as long as we never reach our peek
we will forget what it feels to be bleak.

As long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive

Love is all you need
It is the seed to the purpose we use to feed
our soul, in the pit of our hearts
where there is light even in the dark.

bables

How do you ever know
what direction to go
what path will lead you to the best outcome
what journeys will involve the most fun

nothing is certain

life is temporary

and we must decide if we want to thrive in this limited lifetime

but what I do know

Is that slowly we all grow

some into trees

some into leaves

if you get my analogy

but what is most obseen

Is the thought of living a whole existence not telling you what I mean

I love the way you look at me

when we're too gone to be aware of our stares

I see your eyes find suprise
when my smile breaks the disguise
shattering whatever thought may have been brewing deep inside

oh how I long to know the kind of certainty
when you don't hold back any dount of me
your ready to embark on a new journey
that could very well destract you the nights you get lonely

take a ride with me
Ill show you all I see
keep me company
and I'll play melodies of symphonies

I sing this to you in my head.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FJ5BXfXUYwM

Somehow

Somehow I still feel that purchase was the best thing thats ever happened to me.
As an individual, on my own singular journey to fulfilling my destiny - whatever that may be- going away to college and learning about how to live with people other then my family, its become one of the most valuable lessons i've yet to learn.

I don't regret a thing, because with each mistake has come strength.

Thats why you cant be afraaid to live richly, to take chances and explore your limits.
Even if the immediate result might seem like the end of life as you know it, it could just be the painful start to a wonderfully new beginning.